So here it is, attempt #136

I've tried to quit smoking now more times than I can count. I tried the Patch very briefly and hated it. I've tried the gum and hated it more. I tried the lozenges and they basically made me throw up. Honestly, the only thing that has brought me closest to what can be called success was plain old cold turkey and willpower. Last time I quit was under those terms and it got me 4 months of smoke-free happiness. Then I went on vacation. Did you know that cigarettes are a dollar a pack in Cuba?!? Well they are. Gawd dammit.

This this time I'm trying something new. Every shrink everywhere always suggests keeping a diary of whatever addiction you're trying to kick, so in that spirit, here's my Quit Smoking blog. Any words of wisdom you have would be helpful, so please post your comments.

Here goes nothing...

Friday, March 27, 2009

Wednesday March 25

Rough day. Not feeling so hot. My throat's all dry and scratch, bt that's from the cold I've got (at least that's what I tell myself.) But the biggest challenge awaits: A friend of mine is leaving the company forever today and his sendoff is tonight. To make matters just a little more complicated, one of my fave indie bands is playing the Rivoli tonight, so of course I'm going.

So I head down to the pub to see Jared and wish him well. I have a smoke before going in. Then for 3 hours I drink lightly and chat. About halfway through I leave to try and score a cigarette off some random stranger on the sidewalk, but instead I just go for a tour around the block. Once back inside I'm introduced to a super interesting dude who, I learn, is a physicist. Completely on edge, I run my mouth off on theories of alternate universes, Plank length, and the universal hologram theory. I stop short of explaining why Back to the Future II is a scientific impossibility, thank Christ. At 8:00 I bail; gotta go meet the wifey and head on down to the Riv to see the Switch open for Dance Yourself to Death.

When we get to the club, I pour out of the cab and light a smoke. I enjoy that as Pam & I walk to the bank machine, where I meet a drunk tourist who bums a cigarette off me as we trade semi-toxicated riffs about quitting smoking. His friend is profoundly unimpressed. On the way back to the Rivoli, I light another, for which Pam administers unto me a very stern admonishment. But that's it for me until the band is done playing. I grab one smoke between sets and one on the way home.

Total count for the day: 7

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