So here it is, attempt #136

I've tried to quit smoking now more times than I can count. I tried the Patch very briefly and hated it. I've tried the gum and hated it more. I tried the lozenges and they basically made me throw up. Honestly, the only thing that has brought me closest to what can be called success was plain old cold turkey and willpower. Last time I quit was under those terms and it got me 4 months of smoke-free happiness. Then I went on vacation. Did you know that cigarettes are a dollar a pack in Cuba?!? Well they are. Gawd dammit.

This this time I'm trying something new. Every shrink everywhere always suggests keeping a diary of whatever addiction you're trying to kick, so in that spirit, here's my Quit Smoking blog. Any words of wisdom you have would be helpful, so please post your comments.

Here goes nothing...

Friday, March 27, 2009

FRIDAY MARCH 27

Well what a difference a night makes. Slept restlessly again last night...kept waking up to discover my arm pointing straight up towards the ceiling. 'Kay so that was unusual. As expected, I slept in until about 8:30. Again.

However when I did roll out of bed, I felt like a million bucks. Well maybe not a million. Maybe a few hundred. I felt like $873.65. Considering that yesterday I felt like a sac of sweaty assholes, I call that a win.

I'm getting into a new smoking routine in an effort to break my old ones. Old routines were to have a smoke as I slowly walked to the office, have one mid morning, sneak out before lunch, have one after eating, then usually go every 90 minutes or so in the afternoon. I've cut all that out and am now waiting until 12:00 at the earliest before I start looking around and seeing if anyone's interested in heading downstairs. Usually there're at least 2 takers. Today I had one right at 12:00 and then at 4:30, but only because I was feeling particularly antzy...which seems to be the daily norm around that time. I think the 4:30 break will be the next step towards not smoking at work anymore.

Tonight will be an interesting experiment. I'm going to a friend's birthday party, and her events are notoriously hilarious. I'm a little afraid I won;t be able to get into the groove if I'm not smoking, but maybe if I go into it KNOWING that, then I won't be so bad off. Wish me luck.

By the way it's a "Cowboys and Native Americans" party and there's a $20 prize on the line for he or she who arrives in assless chaps. Yes, pictures will be posted. Do I feel the need to show off my high-end hardware? Tune in tomorrow to find out.

CIGARETTE COUNT FOR FRIDAY: 2, as of 5:53 PM.
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